Binged three times today!
How sad am I that some pregnant slut can have this big influence on me. Well her and the exams actually! I knew I was going to binge so I made sure when I did it I drank fluids so it would be easier and ate easy foods to purge, and because I believe the first thing you eat will be absorbed or some of the calories will be, I made sure that I started of with a fruit or veg. And made sure the last thing I ate would be the most fatning and calorie dense thing so nothing of that will be taken in. Not sure how much I ate in total, but I know there was in total 2 chocolates, about 8 slices of bread, 3 fruits like pear, banana and peach, biscuits, milk, water, coffee(black), left over birthday cake and dip. And this is the first time I purged more than once a day and Im not feeling guilty one bit. Planning a jog tomorrow before I have to do my assignments, gotta love school!!! J
- my mind: you're so fucking fat fat fat fat fuck you shouldn't be eating calories this calories that you need to exercise omg purge you fat piece of shit why did you eat that? look at your stomach it's so fucking fat all of you is fat you're so ugly
- other people's minds: hey the weather is nice today. i wonder who in this class is a virgin? damn that new kid is hot. i want nutella for lunch. i think i should get my hair cut this weekend
